Friday, June 29, 2007

sigh...
tina's gone.. i didnt even wish her a proper goodbye...
i'll do a big post on that sooon....
My dearest cousin of all.. had her 21st...
will post on that soon too.......
but now........
now im just soooooooooooooooooooo miserable...
its like the whole world crumbled... shattered and torn...
grey.... pale...
decided i have, to keep it locked away, safe, and out of reach...
yet my resolve.. is sooo weak... so so weak...
and ............
owh..
i dont know.......... what to do.......... you... yes YOU and you know who...
you will be very dissapointed with me... with what ive done...
in fact.. i am too... but nay.. i just couldnt...
she tugged me, she grabbed my hand... ive never seen her this drunk before...
yet for that two seconds, her eyes seem sober.. more so then mine... and i was the sober one................
and she said 'dont go, dont do it, let it go... just let it go'
but i went................. n walked out..
and by doing so.. ive wrong'ed more than half the world...
ive done tina great injustice, and i want to hug her once more.. just once more..
ive done upon pei lin much wrong.. for walking off as she begged me to stay..
ive done myself (since im half my world) great wrong.... for doing what should not have been done...
in fact.. my actions are just.. rash.. impulsive.. carnal??
and because of that.. misery, despair...
i dunno.............. and Master Still Water muddles up the pond again...
WilZC at 7:54 AM

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